Having an "off" day? Let's talk about it.

Today I am feeling really tired, mentally and physically. As a result I am feeling a lot of doubt and frustration with my progress. No one really wants to talk about the bad days. The moments when you don't feel like a "shero," when you feel so far-removed from reaching your goals things actually start to feel a little bit hopeless, even if it is just for a passing moment. Blame it on being overtired, blame it on your hormones, blame it on whatever you want but, when you feel this way, there's not much that can "fix" it in the instant you want it fixed. Today is just one of those days...

So as a result, I've resigned myself to accept these feelings in this moment and I'm working hard to stay in the present and not allow these feelings to cloud my thinking about how far I have truly come in this journey. Through my emotional reasoning, I'm able to realize how grossly unfair that would be and THAT, in and of itself, is progress.

So for now, I am going to take a nap. Read a book. Stop the noise in my brain and focus on what's important, because it's ALL around me. I have a wonderful life. I am extremely fortunate to have my health and my family and a wonderful partner in my fiance. He is my best friend and he's currently slaving away in the kitchen preparing food for us for the week. He's cooking up everything from turkey meatloaf to roasted green veggies and he's even grilling chicken...he's amazing.

I have safety and love and I have gained so many incredible friendships throughout this journey thus far...I am truly blessed.

This is just the beginning for me and even though I'm having an "off" day, it does not define who I am and what this journey is all about. I will achieve this goal. I will witness the "magic" firsthand and I refuse to give in. I will never give up...

7 weeks.


TGIF my Friends!

So here we are, 8 weeks out from my first real competition...and this week has been a bit of a roller coaster ride of emotion, I won't even try to sugar coat it for a moment. I was sick with a waning cold and after feeling like I had kicked it, my brain struggled to catch back up.

Today I forgot, flat out forgot to eat one of my meals and missed a starch in another meal...who does that? My appetite and brain were nowhere to be found today. My training was lackluster at best and I only got through 1/2 of my intended functional wkout.

I dragged myself home feeling exhausted and frustrated but consciously decided in that moment that the easy thing to do would be to snowball today with all the other struggles of the week. I could attribute it to overtraining, not eating enough, not sleeping enough...and while some of that very well may be true, today is not the day to focus my energy on these details....so, I decided to "lock it up" and compartmentalize it and move on to a new day.

This day is done and tomorrow has so much potential. I have some new tweaks to my diet from my coach and I have a new wkout to try and sprints with my teammate and dear friend Lori first thing. What's better than that?

I'm moving onward and upward and I'm readjusting my focus. 8 wks, 2 months, 60 days...however you want to think about it....it's a long time and a blink away all at once. Time to have FAITH, trust the process and most importantly, believe in ME! I've got this....we all do! Let's go girls! TGIF! xoxox

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